why, what, where

I think I have heard it called the long night of the soul when one lies awake at night under the stress of decisions, questions and a heavy heart with some dilemma. If not, it should be. The bible says that when I know not how to pray, the Spirit makes intercession for me with unutterable words. I trust Him to do this. I do not even know what has caused the particular angst which I am feeling now, but I have always believed that my emotions were rather raw on the surface and that I felt things more deeply than many, but how could I tell if this were true. I try to avoid saying it, because it sounds arrogant like I am somehow better because I feel more. This is not what I mean, though. I mean that I see other people go through their lives, deal with decisions and problems in a level-headed way while everything I encounter carries so much weight weight me. Why has x happened? What is the lesson I can learn? Where will I find a solution? And finally, have I developed a philosophy for the particular issue before me. Philosophies of action and intent are very important to me, I think my wife believes I am OCD due to my need to fit every idea neatly into a compartment. Anyway, I would love to know how people go through life without feeling every little cut, every little slight, every wrong they see. It would seem, to me, a better life. But, perhaps those people look at people like me and wish they noticed pain more, I don't know. All I do know is that I am a malcontent and that really bothers me.